||[Feb. 20th, 2005|03:55 pm]
I was looking at the pictures that my girlfriend took of me this weekend and I can't believe how awful I look in them.|
I look twice the size that I *think* I am. I'm so disappointed.
Until I saw them, I'd been semi-ok with my weight. You know, saying I'm fat and I should lose weight, but not caring too much, because I thought I still looked alright--curvy, with a few extra pounds, but nothing extreme.
Seeing this pictures, I thought to myself, 'my god, I have to do something soon, before I keep growing.' I never thought I'd get fatter than I was, but I steadily am and I feel like there isn't much I can do about it.
Sure, I can eat healthy, but it'd be a hell of alot easier if I had a kitchen and never had to rely on getting my food from someone else. And eating healthy costs SO much!!!!! God, it's so much easier to just get some cheap fast food than to spend $6 or $7 for a salad or something. It's outrageous!
I've never been so ashamed of the way I look.